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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2015 2:32:14 GMT
"Why would you do that?" Ari asked. She shook her head. She'd just get straight to the lecture.
"Kai, you can't do this. Erik isn't good for you. No matter what you put in your mind he's not capable of commitment. He's not going to be there for you in ten years. He's mean and he's rude and he's addicted to sex.
"My point is that tyler cares for you. Tyler wouldn't leave you. You deserve someone like him, in fact you probably deserve someone better. You shouldn't go after erik he's just bad for you." Ari said quietly.
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Post by Kai Altair on Feb 9, 2015 2:38:58 GMT
Kai just nodded. "I know all of that," he said. "But I can't help what I feel, Ari. You get that, don't you? You fell for him once." Kai wasn't sure what point he was trying to make. He just wished someone would understand what he was feeling. He didn't want to love Erik, in fact, he hated himself for it. But he couldn't help it. Erik just had this way about him that Kai couldn't resist. It wasn't that he didn't care for Tyler. He really did. But Erik was always going to be his weakness.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2015 2:47:10 GMT
"Yeah and then I realized it was stupid and he'd never love me...but I never loved him, I've never loved anyone." Ari admitted. She meant she never loved anyone in a romantic way. She looked at the ground and had no idea what less to say. She had no idea how to help kai.
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Post by Kai Altair on Feb 9, 2015 2:54:54 GMT
Kai just sighed and laid his head on his pillow. "I don't want to love him," he said. "That's what no one gets. I would much rather hate him." Kai appreciated Ari trying to talk to him, and honestly it could have been going a lot worse. Kai just wanted someone to tell him what he should do, but he knew no one would. He'd have to figure this out on his own.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2015 2:59:40 GMT
"Kai...I love you. You're my brother. I'm always gonna be there for you but this is something you have to do on your own. I know you love him. But sometimes you can't listen to your heart," Ari said quietly. She laid down and looked at kai.
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Post by Kai Altair on Feb 9, 2015 3:03:09 GMT
Kai swallowed hard. "Mom told me that Dad used to be like Erik," he said. "That he was always with different girls all the time. But he grew out of it. If Dad went from being a selfish prick to the man he was, who's to say Erik can't?" Kai wholeheartedly believed that Erik was capable of a legitimate relationship just like anyone else was. Maybe it was just false hope, but it was all he had.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2015 3:13:54 GMT
Ari sighed and looked at Kai,"but he isn't righr now. No mattee how much you want him you can't say simething might happen bevause it might or it might not. "I don't see Erik becoming like dad but that's just me. That doesnt mean he wont it justmeans that you can't hold onto maybe," Ari said quietly.
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Post by Kai Altair on Feb 9, 2015 3:24:49 GMT
Kai sighed. "Maybe is all I've got," he said. "Because he's the only person I've ever loved. I don't know if I'll ever love anyone else." Kai was starting at the wall again, trying to think the whole thing through. "I need to talk to Tyler. God, he's gonna hate me." The last thing Kai wanted to do was hurt Tyler. He really did care about the boy, but he didn't love him. Maybe he could love him, but it wouldn't feel right. Not for Kai anyways.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2015 3:30:33 GMT
Ari sighed she knew kai should tell Tyker but she didnt wnat tyler to get hurt. She just looked ovee at Kai and held his hand. "I love you no matter what," arie said quietly unsure of what else she could say. Ari hated seeing kai like this.
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Post by Kai Altair on Feb 9, 2015 3:35:33 GMT
Kai nodded. "I love you too," he said. "And thank you." Kai decided that he just needed some time for himself to figure it out for himself before talking to Tyler. But no matter how long he waited, it was definitely going to be a hard conversation.
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